Tuesday, September 15, 2009

exhaustion

Last night was another rough night for Baby Jonut and me, so this will be short and sweet. Tonight is Matt's night, and although I'll have to get up to fix a bottle or two, I plan to take advantage of the (sort of) uninterrupted night's sleep. I don't do well on chronic sleep deprivation... seriously, at night I would say I more snarl than speak. I'm ashamed really... of who I am when I'm that tired.

Jonah did well this morning, but never really took his morning nap like he usually does. He slept for about 15 minutes of dressing change, so I was sure he would be more than ready for an afternoon nap. So I gave him his 1:00 bottle, and then he fell asleep about thirty minutes later (like usual). So I went upstairs and laid him down, and he immediately woke up. But he was happy to by lying there, so I just turned on his mobile and turned on the monitor and came back downstairs. But after only a few minutes, I heard him cough and sputter, so I went upstairs and he was lying in vomit. Great. But I reassured him that it was okay and was about to pick him up when he had two more gushers before I could grab him. When I picked him up his sheet, shirt, chest piece, and head were completely covered in gross, stinky Alimentum spit-up. Great. I didn't know what else to do so I had to call Matt to come home. He needed to have his face, head, and chest bathed, and I knew I couldn't do that and not get the rest of his bandages completely soaked without another set of hands. So I rewrapped one arm and entertained his little vomit-covered self on the changing table until Matt got home. And then Matt and I rewashed his pukey parts and rewrapped his chest. Sigh.
And we had to put him in his bouncy chair to watch some Noggin while we cleaned up the aftermath and put new sheets on his bed.
By the time we got all that done, it was 3:00, and Jonah was EXHAUSTED.


Seriously, I had to call his name about five times to get him to even acknowledge my presence. He wouldn't even blink. He was just staring all glassy-eyed into the TV.

And then he finally looked at me.

(Please notice the bib. Who knew a teething baby would drool so much? We have to keep the bib on him or otherwise he'll slobber through not only his shirt, but also his absorbent bandaging. Not good.)

He did sleep for over two hours this afternoon though. I guess that's what no naps, a bath, a dressing change, a puke fest, another partial bath, and another partial dressing change will do to you. Poor thing.

He looks...

... like I feel.

So I'm going to bed now. I feel like I could sleep for 48 hours.

40 comments:

Sara said...

I think its something with all kids with week. Friends have said their kids haven't been sleeping either and my youngest didn't fall asleep till 12:30am and was back up at 8am today and I know that's longer than Jonah sleeps in a stretch, she also didn't nap and its just after 10 and just went to bed; up for 14 hrs straight...so we have all been crabby here too. I hope this 'not want to sleep' bug goes away soon!

Sarah @ Thrifty Decor Chick said...

Sweet little bubby.

Alison said...

I hope you get some sleep tonight.

flynnfamily said...

Hang in there mama!

I made your hashbrown casserole tonight - my husband and I ate practically the whole dish. Thanks for sharing the recipe!

michelle said...

I have been reading your blog for awhile now...and Jonah is adorable!! and you crack me up! I have had friends whose babies spit up a lot...(maybe you have tried these things and maybe they wouldn't work w/ Jonah..but just a thought) always burping him before putting him down or even letting him sleep upright in a swing or bouncy seat...I know you have said he can't cry it out in his bed b/c of causing more blisters..would this be the case w/ the swing or seat? Please don't take any insult by my suggestions...just a mommy trying to help out another mommy. hope you get some good rest tonight!!

Janel Waters said...

oh I remember being that tired!! My child has the "not want to sleep" bug too! after 1am last night - no nap and fell asleep sometime around 9 tonight.

I think its something in the air!

Here's hoping and praying that your whole house gets some good sleep tonight!!

Kelli said...

Praying for sweet sleep for you and Jonah!!

Laura A said...

Oh wow - that kind of tired is just about dehabilitating, isn't it?! I hope you're able to get some rest, and that Jonah will too!

And I have to say that even in his little zombie-esque state, he's still totally precious!

Love from TX!
Laura

Anonymous said...

I seriously think you have the cutest baby ever! He looks like he has the best personailty! I love me some Jonut!

Shay said...

praying you get some SLEEP mama!

Nancy said...

Awww... I hope both of you have a very sleepy deepy night. Sweet dreams.

Bethany said...

My son was (is) a MAAAJOOORRR drooler. he would soak THROUGH bibs all day. We found dribble happy bibs by Carters. They are soft on either side, but in the middle is a waterproof barrier sewn in where you can't see it. Awesome!

Kristy said...

Patrice,
Just realized that Jonah is on Alimentum. I have 3 (sample sized cans- unopened of course) if you would like to have them. My girls aren't nursing or doing formula anymore and I have no need for them.

Kristy W.

Stars in the sky said...

I have a child with special needs and can so relate to being tired, and not a very nice person after 12am. I am not sure how you are doing this night after night. When I am awake with my 9 month old a few times a night I say a prayer for you, knowing you are also probably up with a babe.

Lack of sleep can almost make you crazy. My husband went to the Dr with a terrible headache, dizzy, etc. The Dr did a MRI only to have them tell my hubby it was sleep deprivation.

Is there anyway that you two can have someone (maybe a family member) come once a week to help in those middle of the night wakings?

You continue to be in my prayers. Your babe is gorgeous and your sense of humor is a gift. Better to laugh than cry, right?

Sweet dreams~

Lyndsay said...

I hope you all get some well needed rest tonight. I'll be praying for it.

Our oldest son had to wear bibs I swear for the first year of his life. He was always either spitting up or drooling and I just got so tired of changing his shirt over and over it was just easier to change his bib instead. They make some really cute ones too, but I remember wishing I could see his cute shirt instead. Our second son didn't drool a bit so it just depends on the kid I guess. Jonut looks adorable anyway you look at him though!

Anonymous said...

Look at that face!! Thanks for sharing the beautiful pictures, what a honey he is.

Kimberly
WI

lifelaughsandlove said...

That does sound exhausting! Good thing he is such a cutie pie and it would be hard to get too upset with him :) I know what you mean about how your personality changes in the middle of the night. Both my husband and I snarl at one another out of frustration, and a naughty word or two has been known to slip out of one of our mouths as we lay in bed listening to him waking up for the umpteenth time on the baby monitor. I hope you get some really good sleep tonight!

~Amy

Anonymous said...

I don't personally know you but I wish I lived closer so I could help on days like today! I remember the sleepless nights, the soaking wet bibs, my last day of nursing all the way to the teen years where I'm at now. I don't know what's worse!! God Bless You...you are the best mom Gabe and Jonah could have!! kara

queenmari said...

patrice, i think there is a change in the season going on. my mom, who is almost 91 and lives with us, hasn't been sleeping which means we don't sleep as she has severe dementia and we have to make sure she doesn't leave the house. she has ambien to take, but i don't like to give it to her.

jonah looks so precious and so tired in the pictures. i can only imagine how you must feel. i hope you are able to get caught up on some sleep tonight.

we have you in our prayers.

--mari

Rebecca said...

Patrice,

You live halfway across the country from me but I've been reading your blog since Jonah was born and a prayer request for him was posted on Kelly Stamps' blog. I am so amazed at the grace with which you handle everything life has thrown and you and your family.

Jonah is ADORABLE and my heart breaks at the unfairness of his situation. Your sense of humor must be what carries you through the tough moments (I'm a fan of well-placed sarcasm myself).

If you lived closer I would so love to help you out. I just want you to know that even when you're having one of "those days," your love for that sweet baby is so apparent to others, and you, Matt, and of course Jonah are in my prayers.

Linda said...

Patrice:
I read your blog everyday and I am amazed at your sense of humor. Maybe that is a gift from God too.
Jonah looks adorable even in his trance. It has been a pleasure to watch him grow. Thanks for the blogs and the laughter that goes with them.
God Bless You and hang in there, it will get better. Love Leah's Nana!!!

Kerri McMahon said...

Hello,

I started following your blog a few weeks ago after seeing it on another blog. I just wanted to say your son and his many looks always make me smile. He is the sweetest thing!! Sorry you aren't sleeping. Lack of sleep = one grumpy mommy bear. I hope you get some rest soon.

Patty said...

Patrice, I read your blog every day. Let me first say Jonut is the cutest little boy ever. I have thought of you so much and this journey that you have taken with what Jonah has. You are a strong woman and I truly admire you. I so wish that I lived closer and could help you in your times of need. I know you have close family and friends and it seems like Matt is the greatest when it comes to daddy duties. I just wanted to say "hi" and Keep Up The Good Work. An admirer from PA....http://www.annikagrace.blogspot.com/ ----Patty Mears

Toni :O) said...

Oh Patrice, my heart aches for your difficulties with the little guy...poor Jonut and poor YOU! My goodness...I'll keep you all in my prayers that he starts to sleep more and vomits less. If it's any consolation, those pictures of your boy just made my heart melt all over again. I wished I lived closer to be able to help you out more. Hang in there and I hope it gets easier for you guys.

Nikki said...

Hope you got some much-needed sleep last night! I just wanted to tell you how good Jonah's face looks lately... is it just the pics, or are things really looking better?

Amber Schmidt said...

I don't know how you do it! I am a BEAST without sleep. Even when I was nursing my hubby took EVERY night shift because he said he would rather be tired than deal with my "sleep deprived wrath"...

So you are not alone in the sleepless monster feeling!

I am praying that you got some good sleep last night and woke up refreshed this morning!

Kristy said...

I will mail it out to your PO Box in the next few days.
Kristy

Mama10EE said...

I hope you can get some rest! Jonah's face looks so good (and adorably cute, as normal). Here's hoping for a peaceful, RESTFUL, day.

Rebecca said...

Praying that as I type this - you've had a good night sleep and that you and Jonah are enjoying a sunny late morning.

libby @ ninesandquines said...

OH! he looks sooooo exhausted....and i have to bet that you look just like that too....poor thing! and i don't have children (yet) but i know that "snarl vs. speak" after a certain point of exhausted! hang in there!

Ani said...

even tired, he's such a cutie...
our darling boy drooled forever while teething (he started around 3 months and the first tooth came out after his 1st birthday!!!). so, i found the c.arters bibs to be the best at keeping the clothes underneath dry. they have a velcro on the side, cloth like feel on top and some sort of soft/keep dry material on the underside.
good luck!

Anonymous said...

My what a day! I hope things were a bit more 'ordinary" today. That was some excitement you had. I hope all of you got some good sleep last night. I know you needed it. Keeping you in prayer. Thank you for sharing. Jennifer in Southeast, NC

Lynne said...

OMG, he looks totally delirious! It's so funny! I know it's not so funny that you're so tired though. Hopefully you'll get some sleep tonight??

Jessica said...

Patrice,

What a ride you are on, friend! I read your story daily and your family is always in my prayers. Praying for rest and a healthy boy!

Covey and Justin said...

I had pukers too--Layering a crib sheet with a waterproof mattress cover always worked really well fo rus. I would get about 6 or 7 layers (sheet, protector, sheet protector) on there to get through a night sometimes--you just have to peel off the top pukey layer. It sure beats having to change the sheets and wrestle with the crib bumpers etc. at 2am (or even 2pm!)

LB said...

I hope you guys get some rest tonight. I've been praying for energy/strength for you all.

I was looking at your post with my 2 year old close behind me, and she asked me if it was AD, her 6 month old brother. I told her, "No, that's Jonah." She said, "I play with Jonah, Mommy?" I wish she could!

Have a great week!

Neighbor Wars said...

Aww..I love the sleepy look pics!!! Here's hoping and praying you get some sleep tonight!!

Caroline said...

I have never commented but have prayed and prayed for you guys. Jonah is precious and has such a sweet face... Hope you get some rest!

CycloneMomma said...

I have a good friend whose daughter has medical issues as well (completely separate from Jonah's.) Her daughter has really benefited from a melatonin supplement. Your body needs melatonin to regulate sleep cycles. Maybe this would be something to ask your ped or DEBRA about.

Just a hug and a prayer. :)

Debbie,mother of two said...

I am so sorry that you have been having such a rough time. I bet Jonah doesn't feel well either with all the vomiting and not sleeping. I will pray that tonight everyone gets needed and peaceful sleep. I pray that when if your time is not a lot at one time that the Lord will make you feel like it was a lot and you feel rested. Praying for the vomiting also that the doctors can do something to help Jonah.