So, I'm here by myself for most of the day, although Kathryn's going to be here for a couple hours a little later on. I really haven't been with Jonah alone that much, except for a couple hours in the mornings between Matt leaving for work and someone coming around 10:00. I know that's ridiculous, but he's just extremely high maintenance, so it's a little scary to be on my own. Plus, I do better psychologically with all of it when I have the company. I could have had someone today, but purposely wanted to try it on my own. I'm actually really excited.
So far, he's been great. He woke up around 8:15, so I left him in bed to get his meds drawn and heat up his bottle. But then, he fell back asleep, so I had time to take a quick shower and pump before he woke up again. Then, he was content in his vibrating chair (remember?... the one I've wanted him to like, but he hasn't until now). After a diaper change, he ate 125 cc's (a smidge over four ounces) in only TWENTY MINUTES. I'm so excited. Not a hint of acid reflux (it's been much better for the last three days or so, but I've been afraid to say it out loud... that maybe we're getting things under control). I then did a patch up job on one of his arms, lanced a couple blisters, and now I've laid him down in his bed hoping he'll fall asleep. He's acting so tired, but when I hold him, he rubs his face back and forth on my chest, and I know that's causing new blisters. I don't hear him anymore, so I think he's drifted off. Man, it's so great to feel like I can handle this by myself. I can't tell you how frustrating it is to know you can't even take care of your own child alone. But he's finally, finally getting to a point where he will stay in the swing for more extended periods of time and is content to sit in his vibrating chair in the kitchen while I wash dishes, mix milk, switch over the laundry etc. And wow, if he will keep eating this well without all the crying and fussing, and in less than half the time it was taking... I'll be a new person. We'll be able to go out in public without me having to run out the door as soon as he finishes one feeding (that is, after a diaper change, then peeing through his diaper, then an outfit change, then spitting up, followed by another outfit change etc. and so on and so forth), just to have to feed him again in an hour and a half... in the car. He's sleeping so much better now too. He usually falls asleep around 10:00 and sleeps until 4:30, and then goes back to sleep from around 5:30 to 8:15 or so. Can you tell I'm excited? I feel like I'm finally getting a taste of "normal." Shwoo.
On another much more frustrating note, my FuzziBunz have MAJOR build up from all the Aquaphor I have to use on his legs with every diaper change. When I use a dropper and drop water on them, it immediately beads up and slides right off. They are not absorbent at all. So I've looked on line on how to strip them and am beginning trials. Last night was trial number one.
Trial Number One - red, green, yellow, and orange diapers
1. Sprayed with Green Works (couldn't find the recommended Simple Green) and let sit for 15 minutes.
2. Hot Wash with one scoop of OxiClean.
3. Second hot wash with a little bit of Dawn and a cold rinse with vinegar.
4. Third hot wash with nothing.
5. Hot wash with 1/2 the amount of 7th Generation detergent (recommended), with an extra rinse.
Result: Complete and Utter FAILURE.
Grrrr.... I have ruined ALL of my diapers. They cost $18.00 each. I'm not sure how to get the Aquaphor build up off of them, but he can't wear them without it, and he can't wear disposables because of the tight elastic. Dawn is supposed to get the Aquaphor out, so I've been scrubbing each diaper with some Dawn as I take it off, but then I get detergent build up which also repels. HELP! Sunny, any suggestions? I feel like they may be past the point of no return. Ruined. If it's not one thing, it's something else. Geez.
But, back to my good mood. I guess I better go while he's asleep. Dishes to wash, laundry to fold, diapers to burn. (JUST KIDDING. Maybe.)
My friend, LeeAnn, is in labor with her little girl as I speak. I'm so excited and can't wait to meet her. I know she and Jonah will be great friends. If you have a moment, please say a prayer for LeeAnn. If there's one thing I've learned, it's that childbirth is a complete and total miracle, and nothing is a given. I just want her little one to be here safe and sound. When any of my friends are in labor, I'm just on pins and needles the whole day until I know everything is okay. I'll try to post a picture of her as soon as they get me one. Hopefully Jonah and I can make it over to the hospital after she arrives (tomorrow maybe?). I'm sooooo excited!