So I got a special gift today. A massage! My friend Gina (who is staying with me today) had a masseuse come. (I just had to look up how to spell masseuse because this is SO out of my league... seriously, I've only had my nails done three times in my life.) She did my back and shoulders, and it was AWESOME! She said, "You really have a lot of stress and tension up here." Ya think? :) I could feel her moving knots around in my back - weird. Anyway, it was gloriously wonderful, and I'm thankful to her, to Gina, and to God for it. Amazing how it has lifted my spirits. I wanted to take pictures, but it was a little difficult seeing how I was getting a massage and all. Did I mention I got a massage?
Jonah has eaten really well in the last 24 hours (21.5 ounces to be exact!), so thank you so much for praying. Now if we could just work on consistency - rather than him eating like that today and then taking only 14 tomorrow.
He stayed awake all during his bandage change last night. He literally fought sleep the whole two hours, and then was wide awake and happy for a good 30 minutes afterwards before giving in. Little stinker. I think he stayed awake just to spite us. He did pretty well considering, but I definitely prefer a sedate baby rather than a thrashing baby when it comes to actually being able to wrap him well. I'm encouraged, though, that he can be awake and not screaming. I hope that's the case once he's not on morphine anymore. I'm eager for and terrified of that day all at the same time. Once we've moved everything downstairs, I'd like to get a TV and DVD player set up within his eyesight, so we can try some baby Einstein videos. Right now, we're sticking to some CD's (thanks to you guys) and Pandora. Pandora is right up there with Target on my list. We're hoping the basement will be finished within the next two weeks. WOO-HOO!
He cooed for the first time last night. No, not at me. But it was at daddy (the only acceptable alternative when it comes to firsts). I try to take video, but he seems to stop whatever cute thing it is the second I turn on the camera. Plus, any time I try to upload a video to blogger, I can leave it all day, and it still won't upload. The only way I've found to do it is to load it to youtube and then embed the video in my blog (which is EXTREMELY time consuming). I don't know what the deal is. I'm not very savvy.
Jonah has his two month check-up tomorrow. (Yes, he turned two months on Monday. No, I didn't take any pictures or blog about it. Yes, I regret it.) He will have to get shots and will have to have 5-10 cc's of blood drawn (that's a lot for a baby) for the genetic testing the geneticist has requested. I'm very sad about all of it, and if Matt had more PTO left, he would be going and not me. I will cry, I'm pretty sure. In addition to the normal anxiety of all that, I'll have to unwrap and wrap his upper thighs as well as his arms while we're there... part of that AFTER shots and blood draws without pain meds. Good times. Matt's mom will be going with me, so at least I won't be going through it alone.
He's been doing this crazy maniacal cry and startle today. He'll be lying on the changing table or in my arms perfectly content, and then, all of a sudden, without warning, he startles, gets this crazy scared look in his eyes, sticks his arms and legs straight out, and screams hysterically. I have to put my face right in his face and talk him down from it (which takes several minutes). It's really strange, and it's not caused (as far as I can tell) by external circumstances. I don't know what it is that's scaring him. It's hard to see that look in his eyes, though. He seems so scared.
As always, thanks for all your prayers and for praying for me when I have a hard time finding the words. I'm feeling much more uplifted and rejuvenated today. I miss my intimate relationship with the Father, and I want so badly to be on my way back. Today I've felt closer than I have in a long time, and I'm excited to have Him carry me back. Now I just have to stop kicking and screaming to get down and hang on for dear life. And with Him, it is a dear life.
- Gina - for sending Terre to give me a massage. Did I mention I got a massage?
- Nurse Brian from the pediatrician's office for taking Jonah's morphine prescription to the pharmacy (they wouldn't accept it from the doctor's office over the phone) because I couldn't leave to go get it from the office and take it myself. Above and beyond.
- Jason and Jennifer - for bringing us dinner tonight from El Maguey (the BEST Mexican restaurant in the whole world - trust me). I could buy their sweet tea by the gallon (si lo permitía, pero no (sigh)… así es la vida)