We got a really late start, because the reporter from the Journal came to interview us for a follow-up story on Jonah. It was a good talk, and very hopeful compared to the last time we spoke with her. She asked me at one point if I felt like a mom. I said, "I feel like a caregiver"... which sounds really bad, but that's not how I meant it. What I meant was that with so many people around and with all the help, it feels like Jonah is a community child (which is great), so I just feel like one of many who are caring for him. It's the whole "It takes a village" concept. But I don't really think I'll fully grasp the concept of "mom" until all the help leaves, we're on our own, and we start creating our "normal." I still feel like a confused kid most of the time, so the fact that I'm responsible for the life of another human being blows my mind... still adjusting. In lots of ways, though, I definitely feel like a mom - the instincts kicked in with Gabe, and I've never really been the same since.
It's so great that this time when the photographer comes, he'll be taking photos of Jonah from our house. Hooray! I'll let you know when the story runs.
I had Kathryn take pictures of the dressing change tonight, so I'll plan on posting those tomorrow along with an explanation of the process. I use the term "plan" very loosely. I know this is hard to believe, but I'm not the one who calls the shots around here these days. Just so you know, I may post some pictures that would be tough on little eyes, so maybe preview the blog before you bring the kiddos to look at pictures of little Jonah. He looks GREAT, but I'm using my crappy camera (I had been using my sisters' awesome cameras), so it blows out the pictures, and even the parts that aren't really red in person look red in the photos... all that to say that the pictures will NOT do him justice.
Off to bed. If tonight is like last night, I'll be up from 3am to 6am hanging out with Jonah. He's wide awake and content (as long as you're holding him) during that time. See? I told you I don't call the shots. These pictures were taken at 4:00 this morning.