Friday, September 3, 2010

rough week

Man, it has been a long and emotionally exhausting week. Jonah had his 18 month check-up, a shot, and an unsuccessful blood draw Monday. On Tuesday, Jonah got Croup, had to spend hours in doctors' offices and had to get xrays. On Tuesday evening Jill died. Tuesday night through Friday morning, steroids (last dose was this morning!) made Jonah clingy, extremely fussy, inconsolable, and wanting ONLY Mommy. Thursday night Terre died. This morning, Jonah was the worst yet, completely inconsolable through most of bath and dressing change. But he woke up from nap feeling better, so the day was looking up.

But then, right after I finished feeding him his lunch, I opened the fridge to clean off one of the shelves where an egg had broken and leaked. Jonah crawled and pulled up on the fridge shelves while I was cleaning. No big deal. But then, when I was ready to shut the door, I moved him just out of the way enough to close it. As I was closing it, the WHOLE ENTIRE FRIDGE DOOR fell off and slammed face down on the floor. It was within centimeters of really hurting Jonah. It brushed up against his leg when it fell, but thankfully, it just touched the bandaged part. He was so scared, but I snatched him up fast before he had time to really realize what had happened. So then I had a scared and screaming baby, and a fridge door (including smashed eggs and leaking sauce bottles) face down on my kitchen floor. My dad had left about thirty minutes earlier, so I called him to come back. While I was waiting for him, I trapped Jonah in his exersaucer in the basement and hiked all the food that I really cared about (mostly his yogurts, cheeses, milk etc) and took it down to the garage fridge. I didn't even attempt to lift the door and see the damage till my dad got back. It took him the rest of the afternoon to fix it.

My first feeling was terror when I thought it was going to hurt Jonah. But then, when I knew he was okay, all I could think was, "You have got to be kidding me? What else?"

It was very frustrating, but in the scheme of things, it is NOT important at all. (But I didn't even stop to take a photo of how ridiculous it all was, because, frankly, I was just too pissed off to take pictures.) I'm ready for this week to be OVER and for a three day weekend and am praying for cooler weather tomorrow and Sunday.

As for tonight, I go to bed knowing that Jill and Terre are together WITH JESUS, and as much as they are missed and cried for here on Earth, I have to be happy. No more pain. No more suffering. Freedom. Rest. Eternity in the place where they wanted most to be. THANK GOD!

Jill
Terre

16 comments:

Heather said...

And I thought I had a bad week! I hope things start looking up soon. Steroids can really make them an emotional mess. Hope he's a happy and well boy again soon.

ElleAuvil said...

Steroids are rough. The benefits are tainted by what they do to your mind! I have done months on Prednisone and sometimes I truly thought I was going crazy. My husband just thought he needed to commit me. Hang in there. He will feel better soon. Praying for you to have a better week next week. Enjoy Matt being home. So sorry for the loss of your friends, but so glad they were believers and are home with their Father.

Wanda Wilkinson said...

Praying for God to reach down and wrap His arms around you. Love & prayers are sent your way. Enjoy being with you two men this weekend. Thankfully cooler temps

Mandy's Memories said...

So sorry to hear about your friends. I will keep you in my prayers. Enjoy your 3 day weekend

Carol said...

I am sorry you have to continue to endure so much pain with Jonah and then the fridge problem and the loss of your friends. I have had a rough week too, so maybe we can pray for each other. We had to put our puppy to sleep and she was tested positive for rabies. All 10of my family member are having lots and lots of shots. I am holding down my grandbabies and causing them so much pain because I failed to get a rabies shot this summer. Remembering you and yours in prayer!! CArol (I am the artist of the Jonah animal watercolor?)

Jenni said...

You have had a rough week! I also hope you have a relaxing weekend and sorry for the loss of these 2 tremendous women. And through this week, you did such a great job blogging and staying in touch!

Toni :O) said...

Golly, you definitely deserve a much better week ahead. I'm so sorry about your week and thank goodness the fridge door didn't hurt Jonah...my goodness what a freak thing eh? Never heard of that one. Many hugs for strength and support being sent your way and hope you have a great weekend, you deserve it sista!

Pam the Realtor said...

I hope that at some point this week you have let yourself sit down and have a good cry. I don't know anybody that deserves it more.

as written by Barbara said...

Praying and sending hugs...

Barbara Lyman :-)
Maryville, WA

Millicent said...

seriously? the fridge door fell off?? that is just crazy!! Sooo glad Jonah was okay!
Sweet pics of your friends--sad for those left behind, but glorious for them!

Edling's said...

Holy Smokes! What a week! I am sorry you all had to go through so much. What a blessing that Jonah wasn't hurt when the door fell! That could have been awful. I hope this weekend turns around and you'll have an easy, breezy Labor Day! Love, Jenn

Michelle said...

Just think, now they can play and hold and love on sweet Gabe! God Bless you this week, it sounds like it's been pretty rough on you and I will keep you in my prayers.

Jannette said...

Praying for all of you even more... and Jill's and Terre's families too. Hope this weekend refreshes your heart.

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

What a week ... I am so sorry about the loss of your two beautiful friends. I know they are telling Gabe all about Jonah and your family!

The fridge door - seriously! How scary, I imagine your heart just about stopped when it was falling so close to Jonah! I have never ever heard of that happening before.

I hope you get some relaxing in this weekend and that next week is a MUCH better week!

Claire said...

Oh, you poor girl. I'm praying for you to have a restful and wonderful weekend.

Cxx

Jessica said...

wow, girl! You have had it rough. Big cyber hugs are being sent your way. You are strong, and inspiring.