I'm feeling some better today. I went to GriefShare tonight. It was thought provoking, emotional but good. I feel like I've been able to better identify today what's causing some of my funkiness, so I guess that's at least one step in the right direction.
I'm certainly not offended by any of you suggesting antidepressants or anti-anxiety medications, so don't feel bad for emailing about that. I'm definitely not against them, and I'll probably give it a few more days (and some more prayer) and talk to my doctor about it. I at least want to go to the doctor and have them check my thyroid and my Vitamin D levels. I KNOW the spring, being able to get outside, and sunnier weather will help... if it ever arrives.
I guess it boils down to me not feeling like a very good wife or mother right now... mediocre at best. And I just don't want to waste my time with Jonah (or Matt, for that matter) not living up to the fullness and potential God has in store for us.
So whether it's prayer, medicine to give me a jump start, better weather or a combination of all of that to help, I'm open to it.
Life's too short to half-live in funked out bummage.
You know what I'm sayin'?