Please pray for Jonah. He is extremely congested and has dried up boogers way in the back of his nose that I can't safely reach. He's really having to work hard to breathe and can't eat because of it. This is on top of the fact that he's stopped eating as well over the last couple days. I think he's supposed to be taking 17-18 ounces minimum in a 24 hour period, and the last two days, he's only eaten about 14 each day... and this was BEFORE all this crazy congestion stuff (JEB pretty much affects any of his mucous lined surfaces). I've tried a cool mist vaporizer, a hot steamy bathroom and saline drops. I can't suction him because it will cause blisters. I don't know what else to do.
When I try to pray about it, it goes a little something like this, "God you can just snap your fingers and take his congestion away so he can eat. Throw him a freakin' bone for once."
See? So I need help.
I'm feeling very angry and negative these last couple days. Mad for Jonah. Mad for us. Mad that I can't go out to lunch with my friends, mad that I'm probably going to have to give up my job, mad that we can't go to a night movie or out to dinner. But mostly, I'm mad for Jonah - that he'll have to be in pain and struggle his whole life. That people may look at him and think he's gross or contagious or unclean. Mad that I can't make people be friends with him or make girls think he's attractive. So scared he might hate his life.
I know this is entirely negative and directly from Satan, but it's how I currently feel. I'm mad and on the verge of depressed some days.
And now he can't eat. Enough already. That's enough.