The Zout/Oxiclean combo was a no-go. But no worries. At least I ran everything through the dryer again and set those stains EVEN deeper. Grrrr...
I'm happy it's Friday. Not that my weekend days are really different from my weekday days, but Matt's around more, and that makes me happy. He has used sooo much vacation time that after next Wednesday (when he takes off for Gabe's one year birthday) and our beach trip we had already planned for this summer (assuming we'll still get to go), he'll only have 2.5 days of vacation left... which is actually great when you think about what he's already had to take off. His work has a very generous PTO policy. He'll just have to stay healthy.
I put on make-up on today, brushed my teeth, and
Not a whole lot to report today. It's 72 degrees and sunny, and Jonah and I spent some time out on the back deck. I'm sure we'll be out there again. It gives me the semblance of getting out of the house. It was all going great until he projectile spit up all over me, the chair and the deck. Sweet boy missed his bandages though, so I was very thankful for that.
Think we may have gotten some real smiles today... still too hard to tell.
I'm currently washing my Aquaphor stained clothes. I'm trying a concoction of Oxiclean powder wetted with Zout spray and rubbed in. I'm washing them in warm water (YIKES). We'll see how it goes. If it takes the color out, it's not really a big deal since I'm not wearing them out of the house as it is anyway. Thanks for being considerate of Jonah's clothes, but HE doesn't wear clothes. It's OUR clothes that have grease stains all over them. Matt and I are developing Aquaphor and Non-Aquaphor sides of the closet. If this doesn't work, I'm eager (I mean not exactly eager, but you know what I'm saying) to try the other options you guys recommended.
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention when I was writing about the crazy, incoherent breast milk labels - I also tried to pour the milk from the bottle to the storage bag, totally missed, spilled milk all over myself and the bed, and had to do a middle-of-the-night sheet change. Just what I want to be doing at 3am. Good grief.
They say the newspaper story is on track to run on Monday. I'll let you know if it changes.
Jonah's still eating well, and we were able to skip the midnight feeding last night. It was a good move except I accidentally turned off the alarm clock at 3am. So at 3:30 when he woke up, it was NOT pretty. Homeboy woke up with a vengeance. And as much as I wish I could heat up milk in 10 seconds, it didn't happen. VERY ugly.
We'll be celebrating Gabe's one year birthday on Wednesday. I'd like to do some special things, but am having a hard time coming up with exactly the right thing. It's hard for anything to feel right when he's not here to celebrate with us. I think we'll probably take Jonah and have a picnic out at his spot if it's nice weather. Other than that, I'm not sure... it's such a bittersweet day - mourning the incredible loss, celebrating the day we finally got to see his beautiful face. I miss him every minute of every day - even more now that Jonah is at home, and we're getting to do so many baby things with him. I wish he was here with us but am thankful he rests in the arms of my Savior. I can't believe it's almost been a year.
Please be in prayer for us as we approach the day. I'm not sure yet how we will handle it, but I've teared up several times the last few days just thinking about it. Our hearts are still very much broken.
Also, please be in prayer for Jonah. He's got some new blisters on his face, the back of his head, his shoulder, and his belly. The ones on his belly and shoulder keep refilling and stretching out. He's going to have huge raw spots by the time they're done growing for good. The ones on the back of his head hurt him a lot and make it very hard to pick him up. And the ones on his face just make me sad. His face has looked so great for so long... my hope for him has been that his face would stay clear - superficial though it may sound. It would just make his life easier. I need to not care what people will think and say, but I just know how cruel the world can be. I want them to see what I see. I want them to see Jonah.